Next year

I have decided to stay down here next year instead of going to ISU. I went home for my ISU transfer day and had a complete change of heart. I knew I wanted to be closer to my family but I can't go back to the cornfields forever. I am over it. I will enjoy this summer for my family and friends but I enjoy escaping at school. I got an apartment next to The Pointe apartments. Its going to be nice to be able to make my own food and not have to park my car a mile away. I am sad to leave here but there is all of next year to look forward to.

So I have a new conflict. I haven't spoken to my roommate for 2 weeks. She got mad when I had people in the room after going out and a guy she argues with I guess really upset her and I was unaware for other reasons. But I old her that we could talk about it and apologized for it but she hasnt spent the night on a friday or saturday night since. And hasnt spoken a word to me, I have been stressed about other stuff so I didnt want to deal with her over reactions. Only one more week, Im gonna say something. We have known each other since my junior year of high school and its ridiculous that this little thing will make us never speak again. I am not one for drama thats why I hang out with mostly guys. 

Problem

I have found there are some negatives of just hanging out with guys. Some of the guys have girlfriends and it takes them a while to understand that I truly am no threat to them, I am really not interested in their boyfriends. Another problem I have is one of the guys I hang out with likes me. He hasnt said it but he is always coming around and lingering and im starting to get creeped outttt. When I dont return the feelings I usually completely shut the person out and get really weird. I am trying to be a grown up but i dont know if i should just say something or if i should just slowly shy away. The only problem is is that I like hanging out with all of them but I dont want to lead him on. I have not shown any interest in him so idk he doesnt get it. I sound like an awful bitch but im just trying to survive for the next 5 weeks.

Woops

I realize that the last post was really depressing. Haha but I am in a better mood today. I am glad that the debate is over, but I have 3 papers due next thursday/friday and I have to go to ISU for my transfer day on friday. I really do not want to go to ISU next year now. I would love to be closer to my family and be able to watch my nephew, who is 2, grow up but it is sad because i have met some good people down here. The only thing is that I have no girl friends that I didnt know from back home. Most of the time its me hanging out with 4 or 5 guys. They treat me like one of them so its nice. I have always had this kind of friendship with my guy friends but I always have my 4 really close girl friends. I miss them so much I just cant find anyone like them down here. saddd

Move On

I have noticed that now that I am in college It is easier for me to deal with saying goodbye. I am going to ISU next year and I have realized I will probably not see the majority of people I know down here ever again. When I first thought about this it freaked me out a bit. But I am okay with it now. I know that if I stayed here for 3 more years after that I would never see them again anyways. It sounds depressing, but I know that at the end of college you only keep your closest friends but your family is most important. 

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