Problem

I have found there are some negatives of just hanging out with guys. Some of the guys have girlfriends and it takes them a while to understand that I truly am no threat to them, I am really not interested in their boyfriends. Another problem I have is one of the guys I hang out with likes me. He hasnt said it but he is always coming around and lingering and im starting to get creeped outttt. When I dont return the feelings I usually completely shut the person out and get really weird. I am trying to be a grown up but i dont know if i should just say something or if i should just slowly shy away. The only problem is is that I like hanging out with all of them but I dont want to lead him on. I have not shown any interest in him so idk he doesnt get it. I sound like an awful bitch but im just trying to survive for the next 5 weeks.

Woops

I realize that the last post was really depressing. Haha but I am in a better mood today. I am glad that the debate is over, but I have 3 papers due next thursday/friday and I have to go to ISU for my transfer day on friday. I really do not want to go to ISU next year now. I would love to be closer to my family and be able to watch my nephew, who is 2, grow up but it is sad because i have met some good people down here. The only thing is that I have no girl friends that I didnt know from back home. Most of the time its me hanging out with 4 or 5 guys. They treat me like one of them so its nice. I have always had this kind of friendship with my guy friends but I always have my 4 really close girl friends. I miss them so much I just cant find anyone like them down here. saddd

Move On

I have noticed that now that I am in college It is easier for me to deal with saying goodbye. I am going to ISU next year and I have realized I will probably not see the majority of people I know down here ever again. When I first thought about this it freaked me out a bit. But I am okay with it now. I know that if I stayed here for 3 more years after that I would never see them again anyways. It sounds depressing, but I know that at the end of college you only keep your closest friends but your family is most important.